Believing in yourself is not easy. At least for me it wasn’t. Well, I take that back. When I was younger, it was really easy. I was REALLY good at believing in myself. I had so much confidence that it was actually quite annoying to others LOL. So much so that my family often had heart-to-hearts with me about humility! The funny part is, somewhere along the line I took this humility thing a little too far.
I’m not entirely sure if it was the process of growing up, the nature of the ballet world and my exposure to it at a young age, or a combination of many things, but eventually my healthy humility turned into self-doubt. I went from overly in-your-face-confident to confident yet humble to very cautious and hesitant. Not in all things, but in many.
I say “not in all things” because I still had some self-confidence. In fact, to some people it may have looked like I had more than most. I mean, I did manage to perform on stage in front of large amounts of people and go to auditions. I did manage to change career paths completely, become a pre-med, and excel in many of my classes.
But to me, these were the easy things — things I expected from myself because they involved my strengths. It was the new things, the different things, the scary things, my weaknesses that intimidated me. And that makes complete sense. Everyone probably gets nervous when facing a weakness or obstacle; successful people are able to push past this. Exceptional people push past these kinds of things because they believe they are capable. They believe in themselves. But I did not. Instead of believing I could grow and improve and overcome my own obstacles, I felt limited by them. And, in turn, I WAS limited by them.
Looking back, some of my biggest mistakes resulted from self doubt. I created barriers for myself because I didn’t believe. THANK GOODNESS I woke up and THANK GOODNESS I’m quite a stubborn individual because once I came to this realization, I embarked on a mission to fix it.
Now don’t get me wrong…I am no where near as confident as my 5 year old self and that’s probably a good thing. But I am definitely growing toward the confident person I want to be. I’m still learning to push past the discomfort and to not feel limited by past mistakes or weaknesses. It’s definitely a process and you should celebrate the small strides you do make toward better self confidence. I know the small successes I’ve made have encouraged me to keep believing.
I wanted to write this post (rant) for anyone out there who is doubtful. Start believing in yourself because it will only help you. Successful people engage in positive self-talk. Sometimes you have to be your own biggest fan. While believing in yourself is not enough on its own, it is definitely a necessary component for success. You cannot expect other people to have confidence in you if you don’t exude confidence. It’s not about believing that you have no weaknesses or believing that you won’t face struggles. It’s about being confident in the fact that you are capable of overcoming these things. It took me way too long to figure this out LOL, so I’m hoping to save some of you the trouble 🙂 Believe in yourself. Work hard. And be proud along the way.
If you’re interested in reading more blog posts about self-growth, check out this article on finding joy and appreciation.